Baka Sakali

Sana mabasa mo ito
Para kahit papaano
Malaman ko na naaalala
Mo pa ako.

Hinahanap kasi kita
Kahit saan ako magpunta
Sabi ko, "Baka sakaling andito s'ya."
Sa mga tao sa paligid
Baka sakaling masilayan ka.

Minsan ayoko ng umasa
Na makikita pa kita
Ayoko ng magsisi
Sa pinalampas na mga sandali
Noong andito ka pa.

Pero paggising ko
Hinahanap ka uli
Baka sakaling magparamdam
Pagpikit ng mata
Nakikiusap sa buwan
Ng isang himala.

Baka sakali.

Radio

I
Miss
You.

More so
When I listen
to the
Radio.

Attraction

I love you
But I also like you
The appeal
But also your soul.

I can see your soul
Through the image
Formed from your soul
And I'm familiar
With that image.
I don't know
Where and when but
Somewhere in my past
We've met.
That is why
I want to always see you.

You see
Your personality
Doesn't matter
The attraction goes on.
Sometimes I wonder
If my feelings would be gone
If I knew your personality
If we were together
If we talked
If we communicated.

All I know is
I can't forget you.
I cannot feel for anybody else
What I feel for you.

You Have It

When I forgot
The past
I gave that love
For you.
So you have it now
How can I take it
Back from you?

Alam Mo

Alam mo
Na hindi ako masaya
Alam mo
Kung saan ako sasaya
Sana alam mo
Pero kasi pinutol mo pa
Ngayon nilalagnat ako
Seryoso.

Kahit alam mo
Kung sinong
Nasa puso ko.

The Unexplainable

The world is crashing down
All the things that come down
Coming to me like a cloud
A cloud of heartbreak.

The earth, the sky
All the weight
In my heart
I bear them with a smile.
No, I cannot fake
I cannot fake
I have that low pain tolerance
So, explain to me
Why???

Stay Put

I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find each other
Somewhere again.

Kisap-mata

Makikita pa ba kita?
Kelan kaya?
Bigla na lang nawala,
Daig mo pa
Ang isang kisap-mata.

Waiting

I'm just waiting
Here
Waiting to happen.

Unless
You're the anonymous
Number
Sending me text messages.

I Read

I can read
But still unclear to me
What is happening?
Is it about to end?
And can I keep it up?

All I know is
I see my image in you.

Maybe

Maybe
There is still hope
For us.

I told you
I don't easily
Fall in love
With others.

Lost

I'm lost
Can anybody tell me
Where my home is?

That someone is my home
Supposed to be my home
And took my heart away.

That home is out there
But hides
That home I dream of
But stiff.

Is this our fate?
To be lost from home.

Ano ba Talaga?

Ano ba talaga
Ang nararamdaman
Mo para sa 'kin?
Katulad din ba ng nararamdaman ko?

Ikaw ang nagbibigay ng kulay
Sa buhay ko.
Buo na ang araw ko
Masilayan lang kita
Kahit malungkot
Dahil bigla ka lang mawawala
Kapag nalingat nakabantay
Na paningin
Sa isang iglap
Ang mundo ko'y nawawala.

Pero umaasa
Kinabukasan
Makikita pa kita
Kaya tuloy ang agos
Umaasang balang araw
Mga puso nati'y
Abot-kamay
Walang palya.

Ngunit ikaw, ito din ba
Ang iyong nadarama?

Okay

Kung san ka masaya
Kung saan, sino o anuman
Ang pinili mo,
Okay.

Sayang lang kasi
Mahirap akong ma-in love sa iba
Pero sana, sana naman dumating na 'yon
Para makalimutan na kita,
Hindi ko maipapangako na
Ito pa rin ang nararamdaman ko
Kapag dumating na ang panahong 'yon.
Dahil kapag gusto ko o mahal ko,
Gusto ko o mahal ko talaga.
Kapag hindi ko na gusto o mahal,
As in wala na talaga.
Imposible ng bumalik 'yon.

Sa ngayon heto
Ito ang nararamdaman ko
Siguro sayang
Pero wala na akong magagawa
Kung ganun talaga
Masasayang lang.

Basta ang sinasabi ko lang
Iba ang future at ngayon.

Miscommunication

I think you
Got the wrong interpretation
I will never leave this all
My feelings do not change
At all.

I know it's true
Because I do not hurt you
Even in those things you don't know.
You just misinterpret
What you see.

I just want us
To start at the beginning
Because the best is yet to come.

But do you ever think of me?

The Basic

The us
The now
Let's go back to
The basic
Then maybe,
We'll find each other.

You're the One

You're the one
That I can't
Wait to see.

To my mind
Down through my soul
You touch my lips.

My days are dark
Without a glimpse
Of you.


*My mind song.

The Root

I remember the first time
I saw you.
That was also the first time
Someone caught my eye in the office.

Everybody was nothing to me
And I said (in my mind),
"Okay, I've found one."
Only this.

I looked around the office
But "waley" talaga.
I said (in my mind),
"Ikaw lang talaga ang gusto ko."
I don't know but
You have that appeal
I never can explain.

Anew

Do you want me
To find a new one?
You know that
I've always been
In love with you---

But you took my love
For granted
Why, oh why?

I love you
But I'm tired---
That's why I'm asking.

A question needs an answer.

Loneliness

You don't know
How lonely this life of mine is
Almost don't know
How to keep up with the day.

Forcing myself to like
What I don't like
Depriving this soul
Of what it cries out.

I'M SICK AND TIRED OF IT.
When will I set myself free?
I can never feel what I do not feel----
I can never be what I am not.

Yes

Yes,
There is a
Time for us.

A chance for
Us
Baby.

The Look

You know that
I could not take
My eyes off of you
Today with your looks.

But you gave me a look
That was maybe wondering?
Accusing?(I hope not).

I have been true
Telling you
To trust me
Because I have trusted you
To have that respect
Between us
Since the day I realized
This love I have for you.

And that is
The love substance.

Aklat

Baka sakaling
Mapadaan ka pa
Sa nakalathalang
Mga pagsinta.

Balak ko ngang
Ipa-imprenta
Lahat ng mga isinulat
Na inialay sa 'yo
Andyan ka pa?

Oo
Isang aklat
Laman ay
Lahat ng ito
Para lang sa 'yo.

Regalo
Ng puso ko.

You

You are
My song.

"Just you."

Though
It hurts.

From the Author

I am
Drawn to
Your soul.

Mend
My heart
And
I'm yours.

In My Mind

You never leave
My mind
To the point
That you live here.

I think
I'm in love
Is it possible?

I think so.
'Cause
Even our souls talk.

Sa Panaginip

Ngayo'y malinaw na sa akin
Nakita na kita sa panaginip.
Oo, ikaw nga
Ikaw iyon
Matagal na.

Nasilayan na kita
Bago pa ang mga langit
At doon
Ay kaya kong ipunin
Lahat ng bituin.

Nagkita na tayo
Dati pa
Sa panaginip.

Ang Hagod ng Musika

Hindi na madama
Ang hagod ng musika
Sa hubad na katotohanang
Hindi tayong dalawa.

Kasabay ng pagtanggap
Himig ay nawawala
Sa musika na buhay ko
Hagod ay 'yong kaluluwa.

Kaya ngayon
Pilit na inaapuhap
Kung saan mahahanap.

Pero,
Ikaw lang talaga.

Maligayang kaarawan.

The Hell I Care

I don't know
The purpose
Of your actions.
But maybe because
You're desperately
Waiting for my post
And you're losing
Your patience.

I don't know(rising intonation)
No one can tell(rising intonation)
Only you.

Anyway
I don't give a damn.

I'll Come to You a Little Bit Closer

Do you need
My Attention?
That's why
You're reading this.

You waited for this, right?
I'm waiting, too.
Just tell me when
And "where"
And we're going
Down, down
Down.

Sorry
I'm just singing. ;)

Inspired by the song:
"Come a Little Closer"
by Brandy

Can't You See?

Do I really
Need to specify it?
This blog is
Only for you.

Yes.
YOU.
No other element.

The Rain

I stopped the radio
To listen to
The falling rain
The thunderstorm
And lightning.

I can see from the window
Raindrops falling on
The ground below
Heavy rain and windy
Almost like a storm.

The heat wants
The rain---
The water (zodiac element)
Like I want you.

With love,
Fire (zodiac element)

That Feeling

That feeling
When you want
To hug and kiss
Someone because
You're so into
But you can't.

And I've been
Feeling this for you
Since yesterday.
But are you afraid
Of that fire that ignites?

Your showing motives
I can see no more
I need your answer
As honest as
This burning flame
Gets enthralled.

I'm devoured by
This feeling.

Millions

I don't know why
But I'm falling
Head over heels
For you.
Strong feelings
Like you are the
Most beautiful creature
In the universe.

The feelings
That I could write
A million songs
Poems and love letters
Just for you.

The feelings
That I could play music
A million years
Just for you.
That's how strong
The feelings are.

Oh, wait
I almost forgot
The feelings
That I could sing
A million times
Just for you.

I'm dying
To see you
Again
On Monday.

Incomplete

I don't know why
But melancholy
Overwhelmed me
When I was going out
Of the building
After work tonight
Till walking on the road
To wait for a bus.

Tears were in my eyes
But not falling.
I was asking myself:
"What have you done
To yourself?"
"You deprive
For covering
The happiness
It really needs."

I continued asking:
"So, have you done
Enough till it bleeds
The things you are told
To do?"

I answered:
"Oh yes, I'm the great pretender."
And I felt like shouting on the road
If only I could.
I could feel my watery eyes
And heavy heart until
I got on the bus.

But there were many passengers,
Maybe wondering about
The look on my face
So, I tried to hide again
Pretending I am
Complete.

Connection

Are you angry
With me?
Why?
We don't even talk.

We're not talking
But you're angry
With me.
Isn't it ironic?

And that's what
Excites me
Meaning:
Our souls are talking.

Bold (XXX)

Were you hurt?
For you to avoid.
Why can't you look
At me?
I'm far from you anyway
I'm at the corner
You're at the other corner.

What of your actions made
Do you put that shade?
If it's not
Then, why you counteract
What I react?

The big proof?
You avoid your schedule.

ATM

"You can close your eyes to the things you don't want to see but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel." - Johnny Depp

Yes, it's happening to me right now. No matter how I run, it chases me. That feeling.

Third Party

To my
Third party,
I told you
I would love you
Forever.

But that's
What you believe
(The one that you said)
And I can't do
Anything about that.

You're the reason
I believe now
In love at first sight
But you chose
God more than me.
I salute you.

I'll just love you
In a different way.
No more party.

Parties

Yes,
There's a
Fourth party
Third party is gone.

That's my secret
The fourth and
Official party.

Insensitive?

Baby,
It's been three days
No glimpse of you
You don't know
How much I miss you.

What happened to you?
I'm not sure
But am I insensitive?
Was it?
I just wanted to say
The past is gone
You're the one
I love now.

My post was just
My reaction to
What you wrote
Years ago.
Yes, I read it
On tumblr.

But I never thought
Of being guilty
Because I was saying
No more past
You're my present.
That's it.

Okay
No more mention
Of somebody else
No more thinking
Of somebody else.

Let's just talk
About
YOU AND ME.

Wondering

I looked for you
But you were not there
So, I'm wondering
What are you doing?

Games

I'm not playing games
With you
I was, I admit
When I was younger.

What I feel for you
Is true
I always long to lock eyes
With you.

But something stabs
My heart
When I look into your eyes
Knowing there's somebody else
There in your mind.
I look away to not
Feel the pain.

So, I say it to you:
I'm not playing games.

Can You Be with Me Tonight?

I see everything
Remember?
Online.
Well,
I just had a fight
Yesterday.

How you are
Possessed by somebody
Kills your soul
Sickening.

It's better
To have a
Secret love affair
No strings attached
But gets hurt
By the fact.

The title says it all
Are you ready
For that
Secret love affair?
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Inspired by the song:
"Can't Be with You Tonight"

Just so You Know

Today. It was a rainy afternoon, past 4.
I was on the 3rd floor of the building.
I was having my late lunch in one of the restaurants, by the window.
I chose that space in the restaurant so I could see the road where you would pass by (I'm not sure, though).
It was drizzling outside and gloomy and my eyes were stuck on the road with hopes of you were walking or crossing the pedestrian lane.
I was eating but looking down at the road and in the background, I could hear the song "Soldier of Fortune" (late afternoon song) being played inside the restaurant.
I waited, people were walking and crossing the street. I tried to wait hoping that I could have a last glimpse of you today. Because tomorrow is another day. Unfortunately, I didn't see you. It was gloomy outside. Maybe the rain was reminding me of what is inside.

At the End of the Day

The preponderance
Of all the hurting
And emoting prevails,
But at the end of the day
You will realize
It's all nonsense.

We are hurt, and we hurt
But at the end of the day
All that you really need is
To laugh with others
A home.
To sing with others
A heart.
To be with yourself
A life.

So, why the weight?
When it all just takes
Your common sense
To realize
Your awesomeness
Never gets tired
More awesomeness
Is what you get---

At the end of the day.

The Secret to Love

You should've warned me
When I was just
In my little world
You didn't show it
It was unknown.

You kept the secret
I should've known.
Well, we hide
Secrets for love
Unluckily, I discovered first
Yours.

Would you get hurt
The same if you discovered
Mine?

Love hurts.

Taguan

Baby,
What's on your mind?
Didn't know how
To approach you
You weren't looking
At me in the eye.

A smile can
Break the ice
Let's stop the "taguan."
You know who
You are
My letter "P."

A Time for Us

Just wait
There's a time
For us.
It may not be today
But eventually
There's a time
For us.

There may be no
words
But definitely
A kiss is enough
To break that
Silence in our hearts.

And that will happen
Because I will
Make that time
For us

Trust me.

Past is Past

Love,
Why those sad eyes?
The past is long gone
I have no one beside.

Forgive me
For not looking
At you in the eye
To even smile.

I am taken
By my feelings
Nervous
When you're around.

Let's live
The moment.

Mensahe

Hintayin mo na lang
Ang aking mensahe
Mga bukas ng tanghali
Tinamad bumaba
Mula sa ilang floors
Kainis itong Globe
Nawalan ng load.

Exclusive pa naman
Itong number sa 'yo
Kaya alam kong
Mga tawag na 'yon
Ay sa 'yo.
Hindi ko nasagot
Ang huling dalawang calls
Ngunit ang una
Sinadya dahil dinaga.

Hintay lang
May bukas pa.

Mata

"Sa mata makikita ang
aking damdamin."
Marahil ay nakagisnan
din ng iba
Ang linyang ito
ng isang kanta
Hindi tayo makakapagsubali
Sa taglay nitong mensahe.

Kaya naman siguro
Takot tayong makita ng ating
gusto
Nakatingin sa kanya
Mga mata'y diretso.
Hubad nga talaga siguro
Itong mga mata
Lalo na kapag tumitig sa 'yo.

Di bale ng hindi mo
makita
Damdamin sa aking mga mata
Sa panahong kapag wala ka
Tandaan ikaw ay nasa aking gunita.

Kaya nagtatanong
Sa iyo ngayon
Ito rin ba ang nakatago
Sa iyong mga mata?

Kalsada

Bakit kaya ang kalsada
Nag-iiwan ng alaala?
Napadaan kanina
D'yan sa may kabilang banda
Namutaktak sa isipan
Samut-saring mukha.

Aking napagtanto
Mga nakalipas dito
Iba't-ibang tao nakasama
Dumadaan sa may kanto
O bakit ang alaala
Buhay pa rin?
Bigla  kang malulungkot
Kapag nanunuot
Sariwa at hinog alaalang
Nilimot.

Pero ang tulang ito
Ay para talaga sa espesyal
Na taong nagbabasa nito.
Nais kong bumuo
Kasama n'ya sa kalsada
Ng magagandang alaala
Lipos ng tuwa at pag-asa
Kaya, tara na!

Can't Fight

I miss you badly
Is there any way
I can reach you?
I got your number
By the way
You know where
I got it
I hope it's okay.

But I don't want
to use it
The immature way of
being anonymous
But there's no other way
I can't fight this anyway
So wait for it today.

The Food

It's empty at the shift
Gets weak and
seeks
The apple of the eye
The food that makes
me sigh.

Of joy and warmth
Inside my heart
Now hungry devoured
You're out of sight.

Strangers Again

It's not about the song with
the same title
It's about the song
"Somewhere in My Past"
Because it seems
I've known you all my life
Like you were in my past.

Well, strangers again
Literally
But not our souls.

To Wait

I don't know
What to say
But you look great
today
I was determined
To break the ice
But you left early
By the way.
Is it because of Saturday?

Anyways
I tell myself: It can wait.

You

It's all about you
Yes--- you
When I say you
It's you
No reservations.

It's written in my eyes
Written for you to read
That there is
Nobody, nobody
But the stranger--- YOU.

Something

I ignored at first
But there is something
in you
I know I can't resist
I need to know you
To see what that is.

Something, something.

Eyebags

Maybe you have seen
My eyebags today
The dark circles
Of not sleeping.

I can't sleep
With you
Running in my mind
24/7.

Overwhelmed

I'm so overwhelmed with feelings
Every time I see you
At the corner of my eye
Looking at me.

More so
When our eyes meet.

Broken Home

Oh, why do we love
dreams?
When reality awaits
With open arms
Ready to give that
precious heart.

We-- still want--DREAMS
That tickle the soul
Friction to the bones
Up to every corner of its own
Longing--for love to come home.

Oh, why do we still love the
dreams alone?
When reality is just
next door
Waiting for you
No more broken home.

Hanging

Do you know that
hanging feeling?
In the air, nothing.
Don't know, what is
that something?
For not giving up, unaccepting.

I've been hooked by
this feeling
Up there of fire burning
Undertaking, completing life
In the making.

Old Testament

There is limitation of motion
Upon deviation(?) depicted
By the "unsure translation" of
Communion with blurry vision
To the fact that it is no more
Written for our devotion
Therefore, just for old situation.

Everywhere

I can see the beauty everywhere
Every time, anywhere
Devoured by a spell
Resembling, representing
The core, the chief
The focal apple of the eye.

Exhausted

Exhausting life, restless time
Sleeping deprived with
a heavy heart
Been to a war
A war of mind and heart.

Being true is hard
Showing what is inside
Regret though not
in my mind
From happiness to pain
to worn out.

The Way Life Has Been

Life teaches us everything
It comes in a natural way
We only have once
Yet there's magic every day.

That's the wonder
So why not seize the day?
Savored with fascinating scenes
Refreshed by living your day.

You Are

You are my gastroesophageal
reflux
The obsessive-compulsive disorder
My blood extraction for COC
for possible anemia
As well as the intractable abdominal
pain.

You are the rhinitis and
my insomnia
You are the disease
That is like a pest
Your etiology I can't
even depict.

No Good

You're the shining armor
that doesn't shine
The one that is bound
to be found
As precious gem without
any dime
Nothing, no rhyme
No life substance
You're dull.

No Reason

I did it for real
Showed love like no
one has ever dealt
Forgot others to be truthfully
committed
And so it did.

But no reason indeed
To be chained
By a nonsense endeared
And now the dearest demeaned
which YOU deserve.